silence is the truth!

hello(: so im sittin here and i feel like crap my nose is stopped up and my head is gonna explode any second and my thoart is on FIRE! it hurts sooo bad i took some medicine but anyway....school is almost overrrrr! gah i cant believe my freshmen year is almost over! wow where has it gone? i have no idea this year has been tough going thru my moms surgury and my heartbreak and drama and school and math ughh dont get me started on that subject! hopefully my sophmore year will be a million and one times better! i have made alot of friends this year made an apology to one of my good friends and im totally glad that i did cause Mylinh your a great friend! can you believe we hated each other over Nathan? wow we were pretty imature,but we wont tell anybody that haha(: hmmm i guess i can say this year has had its ups and downs but its not over yet we still have a couple of days left. nxt year im bound and determined to find the right guy no more guys that are gonna hurt me and they have to be really sweet and nice and someone i can really talk to! i honestly want a love like Brandon and Xenia! im super jealous in a good way tho! haha and i wish yall the complete BEST!!!!! well i have school 2mrw and i need to go to bed ttyl(: toodles!!!!!
Love,Samantha<333

hmmmmmmm?

ok so today i went to church and my best friend used to go to church there and now she moved to another church because her step dad is the preacher there and i totally understand that, but i just miss her alot and there aint that many teenagers go to my church but its gonna be okay cause God will provide and one day we will have a biggg church and lots of teenagers so its all good. but it hurts alot. but on the bright side i had no math homework lol yaaaayyyy! (: and i had chillie cheese fries for super yum i felt good after i did all that work in pe 2day, we had to run the mile omg!!!!! well anyway 2mrw is Angelas birthday! yay i made her a card its not much but it has to count for something lol mylinh has this whole big thing planned out for 2mrw haha cant wait to see that! well that bout sums it all up and im a lil depressed but ill get over it lol ok welll i gotta take a shower ill talk to you later peace!!!
-Samantha <3

okkk sooo!

ok so this week basically i have been txtn,math,talkin to Landon,pe omg! that was so hard today honestly i think i did like 200 crunches and 200 sit ups and only like 25 push-ups thank God cause i have no upper body strenght lol :) hmmm and really this week has been so slow! its only TUESDAY! and i didnt get home till like 6:00 2day cause i have to go to math remeadiation omg so not cool! i was so borrredddd! so right now im listenin to my country music and the best song is green tractor by Jason Aldean its sucha good ol song! gotta listen to it sometime! well thats bout it oh and gotta tell Mylinh and Angela and Xenia that i love yallllll! Amazinggg oh hope you feel better Xenia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: ill ttyl tooodles (:
-Samantha <3

hey peeps! so its like 10:30 and im bout to go to bed! my day was good. i guess haha well i had a really stressed night and gahh im suprized i have any eyes left, i cried and cried over the most stupidest thing in the world...a boy...yes i no i no i cant help it, i loved him lots but turns out he is a MAJOR jerk and doesnt desrve me no how! wow! this is so messed up gahh if you only new what he did, he lied,almost cheated confronted him bout it and he said i had nothing to worry bout! ummm whats that i smell... i thinks its a whole truckload of BULLSH*T haha(: you no im glad i made this blog thanks xenia for helping me haha lol(: i feel so good that i have a place where i can just write my life down in words, its kinda like im destressing myself but no really haha well i got nothing else to say so imma go jump in my beddddd(: ttyl! toodles!<3
-samantha leeann<3

pissed and sad

ok so school sucked as always. i had a good day untill 2nd peroid. my so called ''boyfriend'' told me that he didnt think that we were gonna make it. keep in mind that like less than 24hrs prior to this he says and i quote him sayin''baby were gonna make it this time no matter what"" umm idk but does he have short term memory loss?! whatever his loss im so tired of his crap this is not the 1st time he done this,but it will be the last, i cant take his bullsh*t anymore, and i do wanna say that for all the people that told me that he was bad news and he would just hurt me again im soooo sorry for not listenin i really am. i should have listend to mom,dad,xenia,kelsey. im so sorry guys. i love to death, i couldnt ask for better friends,im really pissed off but ill get over it, i think....
anyway ill let you guys no ill talk to guys later(: peace and love<3333
-samantha(:

hahahahah im so bored!

heyyy! im so bored rite now! my mom and dad are not home. and i have nothing to do! alott of stuff is running through my head rite now. idk what to do about everything! im so confused bout EVERYTHING IN MY FREAKIN LIFE RITE NOWWWW!!! and i just need to get some things outtttt of my head. i cant say what i wanna say and i hate that feeling. i no the words to say i just cant say them! its a real crazy emotion. many are prob wondering what the heck is going through my mind i would tell you but on the computer its a lil personal. just keep in mind im super stressed! maybe i will find away to figure this mess out! i hope so :] anywayyyy...g2g ttyl
l8tr, samantha<333

OMG!!!!!!!

holy!crap! wow! so i was talkin to one of my really good friends xenia and she told me some real bad news....she is MOVING! I was crushed i love her so much. i no i can tell her anything and she helps me with all my problems and i cant imagine not havin her in my life. we have 3rd peroid together and lunch. she told me this like 2 days ago and im still kinda in shock,i mean she is going to stay @ foard for the rest of the year but that is only like 21 days1 and she is going to newton conover high school or whatever its called i have no clue and i really could care less what the name is.....anyway i havent know xenia for like a really longg time but i love her so much! and i cant hardly swallow this huge pill. im really hoping that her house wont sale because its really gonna be hard trying to pack while im on xenias back beggin her not to go! haha lol! and on top of all this im so stressed. i failed a math test and have to study and retake it gahhhhh does anybody no a really good math tutor lol (: anyway i have to go and wash clothes......YAY!
ttyl lots of love<3333 samantha (:

my 1st blogg ever!

ok guys so...this is my 1st blog and im really excited! to day has been a good day. got up @ like 9:40 and got dressed went to church. like i do every sunday lol(: anyway today was pastor appericiation day and we just showed our pastor how much we love em! omg after church we had like a picnic thing and man i ate so much food! i came home and tried to do math homework but that didnt go so well so i kinda gave up on that! haha well thats pretty much all that happened oh and i have been talkin on the phone all day pretty much. im like super addicted to my phone! i love it so much. its the lg voyager and gahhh im gonna marry it! haha jk jk but it is a purdy awesome phone, alot of ppl have it! anyway i gotta go! talk to you guys later!
LoVe Samantha<3333